Raising Kids Is Like Swimming The Backstroke In a Pool Of Mashed potatoes

This has been one of the TOP WORST NIGHTS OF MY LIFE!!! I can't even talk about it with you yet it's just that bad. Well...Maybe a little bit...(surprise) Personal stuff that is spinning around inside of me like a 7 year old on a tire swing. How will I ever get these kids raised...?? And right??!! And Survive??!! Katie is having troubles(no not that kind)...And part of that problem revolves around something simple...You guessed it...A BOY! Need I say more?? Of course I do...sigh...How about LOVE SUCKS YAHHH YUAHHHHH!!! Anyway...so we are having a talk/lecture this evening...let me rephrase that...Mark is talking calmly and I am screaming like a BANSHEE!! (What the hell is a banshee anyway??) To make a long story longer and make even less sense...it involved her telling a lie because she was protecting her boyfriend who had already lied. Needless to say...that did NOT SET WELL with her father or I. If only I could be quiet, calm and coolly collected like Mark. I SUCK!! God...my emotions are always so...out there like a giant neon sign. Anyway...blah blah blah...so we are ending the lecture and I feel fairly good (I mean...at least it's almost over). I mean, I get my screaming over with and then...pretty soon...I forget what the big uproar is about. So...Mark is done...Katie is very contrite...in fact she is so contrite she is so blue and sad and so...I ask Katie if she wants to go with me, Mom and Grandpa to Kearney tomorrow for Dad's chemo and...then Katie puts her head down...sobbing...and when we ask "What?", she says she doesn't think she could take that and then she bursts out saying that everybody was asking her at school why her Dad shaved his head and that she had to explain over and over and over that her Grandpa was getting chemo...and that it was just finally hitting her about Grandpa and his cancer...and she sobbed...and she sobbed...and she sobbed...oh my god ...it killed me...I felt bad for her...for all that's going on...I felt bad for Dad...I felt bad for Mom...I felt bad for everything...I just plain felt like SHIT!!!!!!!!! I can't even put into words...another shocker what a bad day this has been. I fell like I've been hit by a bus...three times...in the same day... More later...I just can't seem to get everything done tonight...