January 29, 2007

Addictions

Last night I watched "I eat 33,000 calories!" on TLC.
HOLY SHIT...it was about 4 people that are MORBIDLY OBESE. and I don't mean just morbid...I mean MORBID!!!
Sadly I can totally relate to their love of food. I'm not yet ready for the show...but I don't doubt I could be!
They compare their food addiction to a drug addiction...and you can really see it in their interviews. They just can't help being totally immersed in eating.
Truely, It's their drug of choice.
Total oblivian seems to be the goal.
Don't we all have our own addictions?
I mean, I chew my nails. I hate it but I do it without thought and it's just second nature. Sometimes I don't even know it until my fingers hurt.
I hate to think my "drug of choice" is my own damn fingers. Can't I even have a freaky addiction? Something not so mundane? I wonder what the weirdest addiction could be???
Must do research on that.

ps...I'm watching PBS...public broadcast system
The next show is...rated TV G and is...Globe Trekker...whatever that is.

January 28, 2007

Our Saturday (in a nutshell...did I say shell? I meant HOUSE!)



wrestling in North Platte
Andrew wrestled in North Platte yesterday. He left at aroudn 6am. We left around 8am. The meet started at 9:30 and we got there just at the begining. First match against a Senior. He did well but lost on points. He also had his shoulder reinjured. His next match also ended with a loss. So...we will be seeing the physical therapist to get Andrew ready for Districts. In order to get home and get to the girls game we checked Andrew out with us and headed for home to pick up Alec and put away a few household items we had to get at Menards. Love that leaky ceiling! winkity wink wink

On the road again!

We got to Southern Valley for the RVL Girls Championship in time for the Star Spangled Banner!

Cambridge against Arapahoe. Our height against their 3 point shooters.


Bench warmers

Cutting down the net is a tradition for this game.

RVL CHAMPS!

On the road again. Notice the snow squalls that looked like tornados running across the gray clouds. Neat to see...if one has to be on the road for a million hours in one day AND be awake then it's nice to see something interesting!

January 26, 2007

Wine a Little...or maybe a DAMN LOT

I am having a glass of wine. I may have two...bottles that is. Don't try and stop me. I feel the urge, the call, the need.
I don't know what time it is really because I have no furniture ie clock on my wall. In fact I have only 1/2 a ceiling and that is purely temporary. The leakage continued today until an axe wielding carpenter and his buds managed to chop through and discard the massive blocks of ice that make up my rooftop. The insurance adjuster was here...shortly after he left...the ceiling began to leak in other areas.
shocker
Anyways...when I got home from work...which was QUITE BUSY BABY I found:
That dripping mess
The wallpaper that Mark helped hang last night (corner by the woodstove) was hanging helter skelter
A massive pile of PISSIN' PETIE SHIT!!!! ground into the "woodstove room" carpet (luckily enough...brown) by a shrieking man child (Alec) who was screaming, OH MY Oh SICK AGHHH!
My lightswitch in the kitchen shoved into the wall far enough that is would not allow me to turn on the light
And...strangely a certain peace to the uncluttered, bare, back to nature living room I now own.

January 25, 2007

Update

Ceiling still attached. Several large sonic booms heard last night though. Hope it was just massive flatulance or snoring echoing throughout the house.
I NEVER thought I would say that!

January 24, 2007

Note To Self...don't sleep in the living room tonight!

Okay, I was just watching The Tourettes Guy one more time before bed and I heard this eerie crack, pop and creaking above me. Mark and I jumped up, and leaped out of the center of the room. We stared wide eyed at the ceiling and I leaped back to "save the computer". We stared and stared...nothing. But I did notice a brand new crack in the far edge of the ceiling.
Prediction:
We are going to wake up and find our ceiling on the floor tomorrow.

The Sky Is Falling!

My living room ceiling is caving in, also, my entryway ceiling and my carpet in various areas is saturated and SHIT SHIT SHIT! There is at the very LEAST 5-6 inches of pure ice on the roof of our home...on each story. I'm really taking my life in my hands at this moment as I am laying in this self same living room under the potentially collapsing ceiling as I blog this entry.
Who would miss me...and furthermore...how long would it take for someone to notice I wasn't around?? hmmmmm
Anyway, the whole "repair" process is started. The insurance agency has been called, the carpenter made a visit, but a big concern of mine is...there is a prediction for the MOTHER OF ALL SNOW STORMS coming soon to this area. The carpenter who will be working on our home has a family members wedding in 10 days. Our ceiling has been leaking for 3 days now. How much more will it take to collapse the entire thing???
We've moved pretty much everything out now. Except for this couch and the thousands of buckets we are using to catch the drips in. I have an old tent spread out to protect our carpet. It stinks in here...and it isn't even Pissin' Petie's fault!!

Another Row to Hoe

We went to the Endocrinologist in Lincoln today. The Dr was funny and direct. He explained that he needed to have proof of hyperparathyroidism and wrote orders for bloodwork, 24 hour urine test and bone density tests. He also explained that the only places to have "mini surgery" ie laproscopic removal of any nodes, was in Tampa Florida or Wisconsin. Then, he explained that the surgery was still only a 1 day affair and tried to be positive about it. We will arrange to have all these labs done and then we are to call the Dr in 2 weeks, if we haven't already heard from him by then. This Dr. felt that Zymeta every month was a bit extreme. I hope he reccomends we taper that off.
Dad weighed in at 147 pounds.

January 21, 2007

$%^&**^#@%$!!

How would a woman with Tourettes Syndrome react while giving birth? I mean...wouldn't the pain just set everything off? God...the mind boggles. I mean, I've been in on deliveries where there's a fair amount of cursing and the woman DOESN'T have Tourettes.

January 20, 2007

What I Feel Like Every AM

Click & see me in action in the am...

January 18, 2007

I'm Dreaming Of a Nap In a Car

Dad's birthday today. We had a ho down without the ho at the folks house tonight. Soup, Sandwiches, ROCKET INN PIZZA, a little Vino a little beer a lotta coffee. I embarrased my daughter! Yessasaaa! I told about how she knew how to whistle at age 2 months. Seriously. She would just sit in her wet diaper, dry diaper, morning, noon or night...entertaining herself...whistling and singing. She was a very easygoing child to take care of.
Anyway...apparently this story was too much for her.
Busy week this one.
Monday...Katie...RVL Vocal Clinic 1:30, Concert 7:30 @ S.V.
Alec, 2:30 PM Boys Junior High Basketball @ Eustis-Farnam

Tuesday,
TBA Katie...Girls Varsity Basketball @ Oberlin Tourney

Thursday
2:30PM Alec... Boys Junior High Basketball @ Arapahoe

Friday
2:30PM Andrew...Boys Varsity Wrestling RVL Cambridge
TBA Katie, Girls Varsity Basketball @ Oberlin Tourney

Saturday, Katie
Speech at Southwest 8:00
Alec, Knights of Columbus Free Throw 10:00
Alec, 7/8 Boys SH Gym 11:00-12:30
Andrew, 12:00PM Boys Varsity Wrestling @ Bertrand Invite
Katie, TBA Girls Varsity Basketball @ Oberlin

Sunday, Alec, Basketball @ 4pm here

This schedule doesn't include work, bathroom breaks or mental breakdowns.

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January 17, 2007

Recap and Review

Do you find it odd that the word "cancer" and "cancel" seem so alike?

We had an appointment to see an endocrinologist today, in Lincoln.
Dad canceled the appointment.
Tomorrow is his birthday. I don't know if that is the main reason he wanted to cancel but I'm thinking it is.
It's hard to believe that 14 months ago we were just begining this journey.
We've been through 33 radiation treatments, 4 "cycles" of Taxol/Carboplatinum, at least 5 "cycles" of Taxotere and we continue with monthly Zymeta infusions(for hypercalcemia).
Dad has random occasional mid left "rib" pain for which he takes Darvocet with relief. Maybe 0-2 times a day. He continues to fight lower leg edema and is on 80 mg of Lasix and 50mg Aldactone (which he occasionally halves the dose of both depending on how he feels. He no longer uses any O2 at all. Very rarely (maybe 1 time a month) uses a TJN (twin jet nebulizer) treatment. He gets little to no activity for reasons mom and I don't understand. He has no appetite. He has pain in the ends of his big toes. He doensn't really seem short of breath at all. He hac occasional constipation. The skin of his lower legs is dry and flaky from the edema that comes and goes.
He is smoking again.
We don't know what is next for sure. We will go to Lincoln next Wednesday for the appointment with the endocrinologist. Dad is scheduled for a CT scan this month to check the lung tumor area.
Right now the oncoligst calls Dad cancer free. We are just dealing with all the other problems that go along with the diagnosis of cancer.
I think there should be a 12 step program for being diagnosed with cancer. You walk into a room...you say, Hi I'm _____ and I have lung cancer. When I was 12 I had my first cigarette. It was love at first cough. blah blah blah

Once labeled a cancer person always a cancer person. People put their eyes on you and wonder...how long before the disintegration...
People ask constantly..."How is so and so??" and stating "Well so and so, you look so good!", hanging on the edge of their seat, waiting to nod in pity while turning to their friends and saying, "Doesn't so and so look terrible?".

January 11, 2007

If It Ain't One Thing It's Another

Went to Kearney to the oncologist yesterday. Doc thought maybe Dad's calcium is staying high because of parathyroid involvement...perhaps a node there or something. If he could get that out, then he could quit the monthly Zymeda (which is now making Dad feel achy and crappy) so he wants Dad to see an endocrinologist. They are trying to set that up now. Of course there is no such animal as an endocrinologist nearby or anything. Omaha or LIncoln.

January 10, 2007

Farking Nebraska Ice Pictures...from Fark.com and Ryan

Recent ice storm pictures via
Extreme Instability, a storm chasers blog.
We went to Kearney today for Dad's dr. appointment and HOLY SHEET! I cannot believe the devastation down there. Most towns along the way are rimmed by thousands of jagged tree limbs in fact there are so many it looks like they are forming fences. Trees look like they've been peeled like bananas. The utility poles are laying snapped off at the bottoms, leaning like falling dominoes. The NTV stations roof is peppered with patches due to the holes that were made by falling ice!! Power poles, huge metal ones that always reminded me of gigantic robots were crumpled like tin cans. It was crazy!

January 05, 2007

Git er Done

Heard tonight from the petulant lips of John Travolta during the "killing of the pigs" segment of the movie CARRIE which was made in 1976.
It's true. John Travolta, the original Red Neck.
Who woulda thunk it?

January 04, 2007

No Crap

I just saw a product listed as...drum roll please...POOP FREEZE!
It's true.
This world is going to hell in a handbasket.

POOP-FREEZE is a specially formulated aerosol freeze spray that, upon contact, forms a frosty film on dog poop (or cat poop) to harden the surface for easy pick-up. POOP-FREEZE is a great companion to a pooper scooper for clean fast dog poop or cat poop disposal.

January 02, 2007

I Heart You, Unless You Are My CAR!

I'm going to work now. If I don't show up...it's because my PIECE OF CRAP CAR won't start because of THEFT LOCK THEFT LOCK THEFT LOCK !! Anybody else have that problem? My car sometimes, one has no warning really, just won't start and starts blinking this THEFT LOCK THEFT LOCK THEFT LOCK statement in glaring bitch red. My car has attitude and needs time out...this I agree with but NOT WHEN I NEED TO GO SOMEWHERE!!
dahummm, as if I don't get enough of that at home...hahahahahahahahahaha!
In other news, the shop looks like a valentine gone awry. Yes, I spent all day yesterday, ripping down Father Christmas and applying Red, Pink, and White Heart shaped objects, gaggingly sentimental sayings incorporated in mugs, cups and cards, and decorating my pine trees with hearts and tiny little red glass angels holding hearts and apes that say "I'm wild about you", "I'm ape over you", "XOXOXO" and other such love notes and red plush fat hearts that just beg to be tossed around the home. Yes I still have my trees up because...I'm Starting A New Trend! yahhhhh that's it...yahhhh Not becuase I'm SICK OF UNDECORATING or anything llike that.

I Heart You, Unless You Are My CAR!

I'm going to work now. If I don't show up...it's because my PIECE OF CRAP CAR won't start because of THEFT LOCK THEFT LOCK THEFT LOCK !! Anybody else have that problem? My car sometimes, one has no warning really, just won't start and starts blinking this THEFT LOCK THEFT LOCK THEFT LOCK statement in glaring bitch red. My car has attitude and needs time out...this I agree with but NOT WHEN I NEED TO GO SOMEWHERE!!
dahummm, as if I don't get enough of that at home...hahahahahahahahahaha!
In other news, the shop looks like a valentine gone awry. Yes, I spent all day yesterday, ripping down Father Christmas and applying Red, Pink, and White Heart shaped objects, gaggingly sentimental sayings incorporated in mugs, cups and cards, and decorating my pine trees with hearts and tiny little red glass angels holding hearts and apes that say "I'm wild about you", "I'm ape over you", "XOXOXO" and other such love notes and red plush fat hearts that just beg to be tossed around the home. Yes I still have my trees up because...I'm Starting A New Trend! yahhhhh that's it...yahhhh Not becuase I'm SICK OF UNDECORATING or anything llike that.

January 01, 2007

Mongolian Film

One of my favorite documentaries is
The Story of the Weeping Camel


An enchanting tale about a family of herders in Mongolia's Gobi desert who face a crisis when a mother camel unexpectedly rejects her newborn calf. Uniquely composed of equal parts reality, drama and magic, the movie provides a window into a different way of life AND the universal terrain of the heart.

Mongolian Film

One of my favorite documentaries is
The Story of the Weeping Camel


An enchanting tale about a family of herders in Mongolia's Gobi desert who face a crisis when a mother camel unexpectedly rejects her newborn calf. Uniquely composed of equal parts reality, drama and magic, the movie provides a window into a different way of life AND the universal terrain of the heart.

Christmas/New Year

Both holidays have now come and gone.
Dad continues to fight "fluid" issues but hasn't been needing O2 at all. I suppose he needs his lung "drained" again. After the last thorecentesis, done here not in Kearney, Dad says he would rather drive up and have it done there instead of locally. He had much pain afterwards. Did not really get along as well. He has an appointment on Wednesday with the Oncologist in Kearney. I think, a scan too. Not sure about that. The fluid showed no cancer cells in it. Yayyyyy!
Dad is having some random pain for which he is taking Darvocet with relief. His weight conts to remain on the lower side (150's to low 160's) and he is requesting suspenders! I will have to be on the lookout for some neon ones. ha ha ha

2007...here we go now.

Brought in the New Year with family and friends at Town Talk.
Mark was singing with the band called Cabin Fever and there was a nice sized crowd even with the crappy roads.
It was good.
I drank too much and danced too little.
I did not make an ass out of my self for once...I don't think.
Just kidding...I was a good girl...good and boring.
Happy New Year.